Internal Thoughts

You're Stupid

 

You're pathetic

 

You're broken

 

You're beyond repair

You're Alone

No one cares

No one loves you

 

You're worthless

You're ugly

 

You're fat

 

You are never going anywhere

 

You will never be ok

 

You are hopeless

 

Youre weak

 

There's no point

Just give in. YOU DESERVE THIS

YOU DESERVE IT!

Everyone out there has thought at least one of these things about themselves, as wrong as they may be, we believe it. For some reason we choose to listen to the lies our own heads tell us instead of realizing that we are beautiful and strong and flawed all at once. It isnt all about the negatives you see in yourself, believe me I always listen to the negatives about myself, but about the beauty others see in you. Like they say, words can kill, and that goes for the own words that tear you apart inside, YOUR words.

For those of you out there who have dealt with self harm or are dealing with it, you probably hear all these things at once, swimming in your head, pounding the walls of your brain until there is nothing you can do but cut, relieve the words, relieve the thoughts, calm yourself.

I never see it in the moment, so I cant say a whole lot, but those words, they pass. If you hold on through them the pounding slows, you can at least get to a point where you feel stable enough to hang on that much longer, dont give in to them.

You never "deserve it". No one deserves the pain they feel or they put upon themselves. This is a rough thing to grasp, even for me, but there isnt really anything that qualifies as deserving to hurt yourself.

I guess what I am getting at is: "No one has the right to make you feel worthless not even you". Your words hurt you just as much as others words hurt. I need to work on this. Because I am broken and worthless and deserving and...you get it. Something must be changed within all of us. We are all guilty of negative self talk. Be self aware, Im trying to be.